Nacho friends and Zappos Family Core Value #10

People! Ugh! Sometimes I just cant stand them. Including myself( because I am one of them.)
Alot of people have hurt me, alot of people have "left" me. To be honest, sometimes I cant blame them. I am not always easy to be friends with.
I over think, I over analyze... & Unless I tell someone what I'm thinking, there is no point in me thinking it, right?
Maybe those are the reasons... or maybe its because I am a bit unpolished, and prefer being comfortable over being impressive; maybe its because sometimes I can be socially awkward and a bit too lame (in deed and in appearance) that people find me un-loveable. Maybe it's because I've been close to out of my mind in a thyroid storm, or because I cant seem to make the right decisions (or any decisions at all) , or do the right things, that people back away and maybe even work at avoiding me.
I can go on and on...and on.

Maybe its all of these things, - or none of them.

I have a long list of things that are wrong with me. I have a few (read: very few!) friends that have seen parts of me from this list,have stuck around and still believe in my other list (the things that are right about me.) God bless them (really God, I am asking you to Bless them.. : ) for that!

But, my mind still goes to the ones who have for one reason or another have rejected me, or turned their back on me. Those are my nacho friends.
The short you-tube version of an old joke runs through my mind.
"I dont like you" one says.
"Why?, cant we taco bout it?" the other one says.
"No, I'm nacho friend..."

Its a lot more funny after a few glasses of wine- I promise.

In some instances, I can point out every aspect of where they are wrong. There is always a nice unhealthy solice in that.
In other instances, I just have to accept that there was a disconnect, and I cant blame the other person for that. Even in those instances my natural instinct is to charge right in and "fix" whatever is wrong- I can turn it around, I can make them like me. I'll turn on the charm, show them I have been reformed!, work and work hard at measuring up to their expectations.

Oh, but I cant do that anymore either.

With a deep sign, and some heartfelt regret I have to acknowledge and accept Zappos Family Core Value #10.

That was starring me in the face this afternoon as I ruminated over all this and kicked my shoes into the closet.
It's a nice reminder and very true ; ).
Humbly accept who you are, entrust yourself to God and He will lift you up.